PEP

Blue Skies-

Hope it's okay to give you my pep talk.

I have my doctors appointment next week. I HATE them. It takes me a week to get back to feeling okay.


I am progressing too. I'm trying to fight it. But I have slush mouth, my breathing is weird, I have a hard time swallowing, my arms ache from doing all the work.


I'm doing most of my own cooking. I force feed myself. I look at the kitchen clock and say, "now I will eat for the next 25 minutes".  No joy, all work. I carry around sunflower seeds and nuts to keep from ever having an empty stomach. 


My big sin is the morning, coffee time. I sip coffee for an hour or so on an empty stomach. It's not a good idea but I live for it.


My weight (I think) is around the same. I hope.


I went to see a naturopath. He gave me a protocol. I'll try it for a couple of weeks. He told me I had a weak lung, a bad liver and spleen and other stuff, from looking at my tongue and taking my pulse. (He was right, I had a tiny part of one lung collapse from an infection about four years ago- perhaps this was the beginning).


And for tonight? Maybe I can have an optimistic outlook. (just tonight)


Blue Skies, when you're feeling scared or down, remember - there are a lot of things going on right now with drug trials. One of them will prove effective in the next year. 


Something good will happen with stem cells. It IS going to happen.


We'll be part of a group of people that survives this. When you're feeling down or weird. Picture being on 60 Minutes talking about the miracles that saved your life. Do what you have to do, to get to that 60 Minutes or New York Times interview. The mind informs the body. Inform your body that you will be strolling around the Louvre in ten years.


-CR